Hi, My Name is Dinna Nelly Pineda.
So as a Christian, which by the way does mean “follower of Christ” it is my job to share my testimony with people. This Testimony is 100% complete honesty. Read along as I share, and I hope someone, somewhere is transformed as they read. Mkay here goes:
I was born and raised in a Christian-Pentecostal family. Since I was young, I was raised to go to church every Sunday to give God thanks and worship him. As I grew older I began to understand what it really meant to follow Christ so at the age of 7 I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior, on my own without feeling pressured into doing it. As always my parents played beautiful worship songs around the house, in the car, basically everywhere and that helped build my relationship with Christ. At one point in my life I felt like a loser because I was Christian. By this I mean I saw everyone cursing or listening to non-Christian music and acting a certain way and I felt left out and I wanted to join. Obviously I didn’t start cursing but I did begin listening to non-Christian music and I did start lacking in my spiritual life. It took me a while to realize it, maybe a year or so. Then, when I began middle school I met new people, It was a different environment, and my personality changed completely. I didn’t have bad influences around me, but I did feel empty so that did lead me to cutting and serious depression. I was also at one point anorexic because I felt insecure. I was always the chubby one in my group of friends and I hated myself. To me I was hideous. I was never happy with God did in my life. Today, I Thank God because he sent others to enter my life and he used them to help me from all of that. Sometimes, I still get sad and feel like harming myself but the Holy Spirit is always guiding me <3. SELF HARM FREE SINCE 6/26/12. After this phase I went back to normal I praised God, he was my main focus in life but still I didn’t feel like I was doing enough. I felt like I was just myself a Christian and saying “I love you God” and I never did anything about it. Soon enough, my family members began these church sessions from home. We gathered every Thursday, we prayed, had a short sermon, we worshipped and then we ended by eating. It was a blast and like the Bible says “For where two or three gather together as my followers, I am there among them.” (Matthew 18:20) It was true, God was there in the midst of us. One day, as we were praying a fellow sister came over to me and prayed for me and right when she touched my head I was filled with the Holy Spirit and I felt this Holy breeze knock me over and I fell to the floor crying and praying. Some may think this is crazy but it’s one of the most beautiful feelings. I literally felt like God was hugging me. When I got back up, that same sister who placed her hand on me asked “Do you love God? Do you wish to serve him forever?” In an instant I replied “YES!” and I think it was God speaking through her because she then said “Ok then, serve God! Don’t let anything stop you.” And that’s exactly what I did. I served God and I didn’t let anything stop me. For the most part you could see me singing worship songs, reading my Bible, praying when I woke up, for every meal and when I went to sleep. I could honestly say I was doing God’s will and life was great. Soon, things went haywire for me. I began gaining a crush on a boy. I will not lie, we talked about some pretty intimate stuff and the sad thing was he and I flirted and were technically “Friends with Benefits” without his girlfriend knowing…yes, I am aware it was terrible thing we did. My mother noticed that I wasn’t in the right with my spiritual life so one Sunday morning she came up to my room and told me how she noted that something was wrong with me. There was a feeling inside of me telling me that I had to tell my mom everything and so I did. I told her about it and I cried. I like to think that I am inside of a bubble. This bubble protects me from all things unholy. So many times my bubble was close to popping but it did not, and I thank my almighty heavenly father who always watches out for me! After a while, I met a guy who soon after 3 months became my boyfriend, My boyfriend, Eddy and I have been dating for 2 years now and in between EVERYTHING we’ve been through God has blessed us. Eddy was familiar with Christ but I believe God placed me in his life and God is using me as a tool to work in Eddy’s life and it is very notable. Eddy and I would stay up at night reading our Bibles together and we could just talk about anything and everything I was convinced he was the one I was going to marry, even if I am just 15. He supported me and my beliefs and he wouldn’t ask me to change. He was even proud of me when I was baptized in the waters in the summer of ‘11. Somewhere in between I myself felt like a hypocrite Christian. I was listening to non-Christian music at one moment, then worshipping. I was thinking about lust, yet I saying “save yourself for marriage” But it was the tiny things that made me doubt my faith and I was broken to pieces. As of know I pray that God just bless me. No, I’m not a perfect Christian. I get lost spiritually. I sin, whether I know it or not, I doubt God sometimes but my faith still remains even if it is hard to tell and I ask that he gives me the strength to be what he wants me to be and to lead me in the right direction. God is and will always be in the center of my life and the reason why I live. Although life is tough sometimes I will believe that Christ is holding me and will not let me go because I have a firm belief in him and My mission in life is to seek him and spread his word to all the nations because one day Christ will be returning for Church and I don’t want to see anyone stay here on Earth, and I certainly don’t want to stay. Also, I don’t just serve God so I can go to heaven but because of the ultimate sacrifice he did for me. He died on the cross to forgive my sins and all those things I said above, God was there to forgive me and when I was knocked over he reached for my hand and picked me up! God is so good! God bless you and thank you for taking time to read my Testimony c: